Two directions, one goal

Just because someone is travelling in a direction different from yours, do not conclude that their goals must be different! 

A Dream of Love

I once had a dream that was so life-like that when I awoke, it was hard to believe I had made it up myself. In it, you see, I awoke and before it ended, I went to bed.

The dream was uplifting to my spirit. I had found love and caring for self, for others, and from others that I had never imagined existed.

Looking back, the unreality of this love is all that convinces me it was a dream.

If it is in my power, I will live the dream again; but nevertheless, I will not feel unloved ever again.

Never safe to love

It is natural, when we are about to take risks to look around for safety nets.

In love, there are no reliable precautions to avoid failure.

You are never safe to love. You must consider the alternative.

Can you live without it?

It has occurred to me very recently that when two allow themselves to be completely vulnerable when together, there is the greatest chance for success in love. Ironic in a way that the best way to keep love is to be willing to lose it completely if it isn't true. Losing love in spite of openness is still very hard. Even though we shouldn't grieve, we do and I have.

conversation

Two people sit in their kitchen. 

One comments: 
(1) "We haven't had much snow this winter, but those windows are already dirty."

Reply: 
(2) "Isn't it lovely the way the sunlight looks on the wall where we painted it?"

(1) "Good thing we covered up the marks."

In fun:
(2) "Look inside the peanut butter jar."

(1) "Looks like I need to buy more."

(2) "I was thinking how strange that you and I can look at the same thing and see two different things. There are still lots of sandwiches left. "

See the magic

Many do not know the difference between scepticism and pessimism. 

Nothing is good if you see only bad. The world is never bright when you look for shadows. 

See the magic?

It is an illusion. That illusion can be your life or you can choose to forget about magic and live in the shadows. 

Choose.

You are not alone

From time to time, the ideas in this book* will seem impossibly wrong. 

Remember they did feel right once. They will feel right again. It might not be tomorrow, but soon. 

Remember also that this condition is a permanent state for some. Pity them. 

* These little essays were housed in a 4x6 red binder until they were removed and bound separately then stored away and forgotten. The ideas were not forgotten however. Not completely anyway.

What we need

In December, without ever giving it a thought, I purchased an Amaryllis bulb. Against my usual habit of procrastination, I planted it immediately, almost urgently. 

The growth astonished me. It was frightening in a way, because as the shoot lengthened it tended to tilt. Once, its' bend became such that I thought it would break without support. Leaning it on the wall, it strengthened and continued its amazing climb toward light.
Its growth complete, it is now beginning to bloom. 

I do not fear for its failure any more. See, I never really expected that plant to live forever. I hope it lives a long time, but my fear is gone because I have seen its blossom. 

I never really thought of buying an amaryllis. It was just there, and I thought maybe "this would be pleasant." Such is the way of the inner self. I must, deep down, have needed that plant.